I thought it was okey but it's not. I thought I could handle this but I can't. No matter how hard I try to keep myself away because it still hurts and today I've noticed how much it hurts, much more than I thought it would. There's nothing I can do, there's nothing I can say. I said to  myself that when this moment arrived I would be strong enough to deal with it, that it wouldn't take my smile out and I would just accept the situation, but once I 've had to face it I can't do but get nervous and feel bad. The worst thing is that it will worse ( at least for me, of course) and I'll have to see it. Anyway, I'm triying to promise myself that I let it go, I let them go and one day, sooner or later it will stop hurting, I'm sure.

All I need is a nail... and everything will be okey.

Everybody knows, the winner takes it all, the loser has to fall.